sometimes i really dun understand things at all.
so what if theres differences between us?
it doesnt mean we cant work out at all.
loving takes time and i believe to reach a point where we are really able to do a v good give and take, it takes alot.
i dunno if i shud be feeling nth now and not be bothered, or is it only normal for me to be feeling upset now, upset abt wat he said abt our differences.
i wish i can read his mind, know all that he's thinking.
all i wanted was a sorry, and this one simple word could have mend the world.
but ended up we had to argue for so long just to hear him say a sorry to me.

is it really a fate and a choiceless, that i have to be just an guardian angel for him, a superwoman for him? am i suppose to be giving for the rest of this relationship?
i know wat that outcome will be. i know it will tired me out alot.
is that really wat i shud do?
will tat benefit our love at all?
should i let him see wat he should do for us too?

i'm feeling so lost.
i wish i could turn back time.
or perhaps, meet with an accident instead, and let myself fall into a serious coma, to lose part of my memory, those painful memory.
i wish to scream my lungs out. i wish to cry my hearts out.
i wish to run away.
i guess at the end of the day,
i shud just keep all the bad feelings to myself.
nobody knows me truly.
nobody understands my feelings.

im broken all over again.

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